Odd day vibes feels
Floating
Drifting
Wonderingly wandering
Limbo
Illusion
Delusion
Confusion
Disconnect
Not 2
The Void
Vastness
A point of creative space
Lots of my time in the last few months has been spent in daily meditation and self reflection.
Just as the CCE was beginning these words drifted into my awareness, “I am just a concept in my mind and a different concept in the minds of those who know me”. These words were my jumping off point. I always trust my cape and I’m known to jump. Additionally, Ram Dass’ ideas on becoming nobody crept into the mix.
Finally, “thinking different thoughts” was added when I read, “It was found that the average person has about 12,000 to 60,000 thoughts per day. Of those thousands of thoughts…95% were exactly the same repetitive thoughts as the day before”. ~ TLEX Institute New thoughts seemed a good idea.
As these ideas swirled in my heart and mind they came together and chipped away at the foundations supporting the concepts of who I am.The ties that bind, loosened. My concept of myself, “ego” if I can go there, is out of focus.
It is scary. It is unnerving. Ask Lama Google, there is a fine line separating the mystic and the lunatic. As I voyage into these waters once more, there is a sense of disconnecting that is disconcerting. There is a sense of disappearing into the void that is both comforting and scary. What will be lost? What will be found?
I remember “It’s ok to be nobody”.
Enjoy the view. There is nothing else to do.
Thank you for stopping and interacting. You bring joy to my heart. Stay safe and well out there in the CCE. I love you.
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Not suitable for the narrow minded.
Jul 08, 2020 @ 10:06:31
I’m feeling similar drift. Those retro planets – wow. Quite the ride, these days.
Thank you for your generous sharing. 💜
Jul 08, 2020 @ 10:11:36
This is definitely a wild ride. Thanks for commenting. 😀
Jul 08, 2020 @ 10:26:29
I’m feeling all of those words except the creative space. Wowza. It’s weird out here.
Jul 08, 2020 @ 10:50:32
You are so right. It’s wild and crazy. I verged on a panic attack Monday. I could see it in my eyes when I dropped a video about going to the laundromat.
Jul 08, 2020 @ 10:55:36
Hugs. Your lake is nice. Maybe hang out there?
I truly think I’m incapable of thought right now. I’m pretty sure I was upset about something yesterday that caused me to break a blood vessel in my eye (TMI, sorry), but I have no idea what I was upset about or even that I was upset. It’s all very disconcerting.
Jul 08, 2020 @ 11:03:39
Sorry about the eye. I’ve done that.
I visit the lake every day unless it’s raining. Sometimes in the rain. It’s very peaceful.
Jul 08, 2020 @ 12:03:26
I’m a big fan of water. Soothes the savage beast. And it doesn’t care if I can think or not.
Jul 08, 2020 @ 15:37:25
Yes it does. I meditate with the lake. Wediation.
Jul 08, 2020 @ 12:22:26
Living alone has made “stay at home” feel a little like punishment — but for what? I’m glad to see you are getting out to the lake daily — I need to do more of that type of refreshment! Hang in, there, and look forward to better times!
Jul 08, 2020 @ 15:39:32
I am. I’m attempting to stay at home. I am pretty good at it. I’m redefining “stay at home” as time to explore my heart cave.